Archive | May, 2011

Good Learning

27 May

I write this entry from the front passenger seat of my car en route to the cabin, and it’s my first time using the WordPress app on my phone, so I apologize if the formatting on this one is off.

Anywho, a bit ago Jack was being uncharacteristically quiet in his carseat so I turned around to see what he was doing. Lo and behold, my darling son was contentedly smacking himself on the head with a book.

Upon reporting this news to Husband, he said “Jack’s like, ‘I’m trying to learn this!'” A new way to transfer knowledge? My son’s a genius!

A Restless Time of Year

25 May

I’m starting to think that something related to Jack Torrance style crazy is being piped through the school where I student teach. All of a sudden, overnight, my adorably sweet and generally well-mannered first graders have lost their marbles. You’d think they’ve never walked down the hallway to the bathroom before and the lunch line…well don’t even get me started on the lunch line.

While I like to think that their change in behavior is due to the fact that I am no longer their primary teacher, it’s more likely that their antics are simply related to this time of the school year. You can feel it in the halls at my school, that sense of restlessness. It’s as though the entire school population (staff included) has already mentally checked out for the summer. I have to admit that I haven’t been much better. Now that my main teaching duties are over, I find myself twiddling my thumbs increasingly often. I’m beyond tired of grading papers and prepping art projects, which is basically what I do now.

The upcoming three-day weekend doesn’t help much, which leads me to my next dilemma. To cabin, or not to cabin? The weather forecast predicts cold and rainy, which isn’t the easiest weather to entertain Jack in when he’s not surrounded by his normal plethora of toys and books. But, at the same time, it would be nice to just get away for a weekend, and the hot tub calls to me like cursed pirate gold. I guess for now we’ll have to wait and see. I’m crossing my fingers that the weather people are wrong like they so often are. These pasty legs could use some sunshine.

Back to Being Me

24 May

Today, for the first time in a long time, I feel like I am getting back to a semblance of normal in my life. I say semblance because, try as I might, my life doesn’t seem to have room for quote unquote normal, but that’s another story altogether.

Uncertainty has never been my strong suit. I am a fan of lists (the pro/con variety included), schedules, color coded pens and plans. It’s what keeps me grounded. It’s what keeps me calm. And it (along with caffeine) is what keeps me sane. So the fact that I am seven teaching days away from applying for my teaching license and two days away from being more or less unemployed should be sending me into a Chandler-before-his-wedding style freak-out. And yet, I feel surprisingly calm about the entire ordeal.

I think this is due in part to the fact that I am finally getting to the things that are important to me. Over the course of the past week I have found time to play with my son, read for pleasure, and work on my novel. If you know me even a little you know that those are three things that are absolutely tops on my list of priorities, but that with my crazy schedule I hardly have enough time for the first one, never mind the other two.

It also helps that today for the first time in far too long, I feel like there is hope in regards to some matters too personal for this blog space.

All in all, to quote one of my favorite songs, I am “optimistic, cautiously.”

I have high expectations for this summer. I think there’s a strong chance that it’ll be the one I’ve been waiting for with regards to my personal goals (this blog being one of them). It feels good to feel like I’m slowly getting back to being me.